hurt hurt and more hurt

So I just really can't sleep right now. And its all because of that kid.

There would be nothing I'd love to see more than to see you run back to Jesus. Somewhere along the way, someone hurt you and you grew cold to the idea of God and church and community. I get that. Humans make mistakes. We hurt and get hurt. We can never be Jesus. What you didn't realize is that you had so many people on your side, so many people rooting for you and backing you up and taking care of you and loving you. But you disappeared for a while. A few of us tried to keep up with you. We texted you often and thought of you even more so. So when you never came around, people gave up.

Those people would argue that they didn't necessarily "give up" on you, but lets face it. When you stop trying and think theres nothing you can do, that its a lost cause--thats flat out quitting.

For some reason, you hold a special spot in my heart. Believe me when I say I love you so so much. I really genuinely miss seeing you and having you in my life. I want to see you at those pearly gates. I want to see you winning souls for the Kingdom. I want you to see that there is more to life than what you've made of it. There is a girl who loves you and a God who is so so jealous for you. You're breaking both of our hearts, kid. You've got a prayer warrior behind you, and we are your number one fans.