So I just really can't sleep right now. And its all because of that kid.
There would be nothing I'd love to see more than to see you run back to Jesus. Somewhere along the way, someone hurt you and you grew cold to the idea of God and church and community. I get that. Humans make mistakes. We hurt and get hurt. We can never be Jesus. What you didn't realize is that you had so many people on your side, so many people rooting for you and backing you up and taking care of you and loving you. But you disappeared for a while. A few of us tried to keep up with you. We texted you often and thought of you even more so. So when you never came around, people gave up.
Those people would argue that they didn't necessarily "give up" on you, but lets face it. When you stop trying and think theres nothing you can do, that its a lost cause--thats flat out quitting.
For some reason, you hold a special spot in my heart. Believe me when I say I love you so so much. I really genuinely miss seeing you and having you in my life. I want to see you at those pearly gates. I want to see you winning souls for the Kingdom. I want you to see that there is more to life than what you've made of it. There is a girl who loves you and a God who is so so jealous for you. You're breaking both of our hearts, kid. You've got a prayer warrior behind you, and we are your number one fans.
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
i love college
What a whirlwind. Stressful, busy, overwhelming, but I'm loving every second.
The first few days were summer camp. It was not fun. I very much dislike when my time is managed for me, so I'll be super excited once I get in a routine and classes begin and its all second nature. I've been going to a ton of FCA stuff, meeting all kinds of incredible people, connecting and whatnot. Everyone here is genuinely kind and friendly. Also I love Maddie and Taylor's RA Spencer (who is a girl, kind of confusing). She is such an amazing person and she's already taught me so much. Confession: I really want her to be my small group leader. I can't wait to get to know her better. I met two girls from Charlotte, Allie and Mariah, who go to Elevation church and love Steven Furtick and Sun Stand Still as much as I do. I'm so excited to get plugged in with people who love Jesus. This school is definitely where I'm supposed to be, and I'm blooming where I'm planted. I'm ready to take on the world and save some souls this year.
The first few days were summer camp. It was not fun. I very much dislike when my time is managed for me, so I'll be super excited once I get in a routine and classes begin and its all second nature. I've been going to a ton of FCA stuff, meeting all kinds of incredible people, connecting and whatnot. Everyone here is genuinely kind and friendly. Also I love Maddie and Taylor's RA Spencer (who is a girl, kind of confusing). She is such an amazing person and she's already taught me so much. Confession: I really want her to be my small group leader. I can't wait to get to know her better. I met two girls from Charlotte, Allie and Mariah, who go to Elevation church and love Steven Furtick and Sun Stand Still as much as I do. I'm so excited to get plugged in with people who love Jesus. This school is definitely where I'm supposed to be, and I'm blooming where I'm planted. I'm ready to take on the world and save some souls this year.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
in-betweenies
College is so close, I'm nervous yet excited; scared yet hopeful. If I have to sum up my mantra for the next four years, I'll choose this:
"So watch your step. Use your head. Make the most of every chance you get. These are desperate times! Don't live carelessly, unthinkingly. Make sure you understand what the Master wants." Ephesians 5:15-17
You better believe this is going to be posted in the dorm room. God's been teaching me a lot about how weak I really truly am. He's shown me how even when I think I get a little off track, I'm running off the road at 100 MPH. Its going to be hard when I'm surrounded by all sorts of things, when all my time is able to be occupied by all kinds of other activities, to make the time to spend with God. But I'm going to work at it one day at a time. Through this whole journey, I want to seek His paths out, follow and obey, and bloom where I'm planted. Whether thats at Clemson or somewhere else down the road, I'm willing to go great lengths for the Kingdom because its here and nothings going to stop it.
"So watch your step. Use your head. Make the most of every chance you get. These are desperate times! Don't live carelessly, unthinkingly. Make sure you understand what the Master wants." Ephesians 5:15-17
You better believe this is going to be posted in the dorm room. God's been teaching me a lot about how weak I really truly am. He's shown me how even when I think I get a little off track, I'm running off the road at 100 MPH. Its going to be hard when I'm surrounded by all sorts of things, when all my time is able to be occupied by all kinds of other activities, to make the time to spend with God. But I'm going to work at it one day at a time. Through this whole journey, I want to seek His paths out, follow and obey, and bloom where I'm planted. Whether thats at Clemson or somewhere else down the road, I'm willing to go great lengths for the Kingdom because its here and nothings going to stop it.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)